let me open up your eyes.

so if by the time the bar closes, and you feel like falling down, i’ll carry you home tonight

found out i got denied another internship.

thanks for the encouragement, universe.  i better get a deal with this freaking book.

wow i just wasted three hours watching titanic for the first time.

it actually makes me feel like i have an internal rage face.

no, wait, that’s heartburn.

nope, nevermind.  it’s rage face from titanic.

i think i’m only in the running for one job now at the tribune company.

so, let’s summarize this day-

-started feminine health issues A WEEK AND A HALF EARLY.  meaning that my feminine health issues will last close to three weeks this month.  awesome.

-ran into bill on the way to journalism class.  so that made me feel like throwing up.

-had an old article of mine critiqued in class by my arts journalism professor today.  more than anything it made me a nervous wreck.  but his critique was good and constructive and brought up things i wouldn’t have known until waaaaaay later.

-vented with robbie who’s still dealing with issues from stupid ex.

-came back to find some ignorant jerk commenting on my facebook.  i don’t even know him, we were friends via the dcp group on facebook.  not only does he think gay teens need to suck it up and not be pussies when bullied, but he also thinks that ptsd only applies to actual war.  so that soured things after i had to defend myself and all friends of mine that have been bullied, especially my gay friends, yesterday with another ignorant jerk.

-keep losing my internet connection.  not so much a bad thing, but an annoyance.  

-in history class and watching it’s a wonderful life.  i love the movie, but i keep working through the film on my review and download my slides for notes because i have a history test on tuesday.

-i keep refreshing the tribune page and see that my application for the executive assistant position is no longer listed.  last time that happened was for the first internship i applied to and didn’t get.  so i went to my tribune profile page to see the status for all my job and internship applications.  i don’t know what “reviewed, not selected” means, but i don’t think it’s good.  same goes for “submitted, not selected.”  the only thing even slightly positive is my oak brook productions internship listing, which says “received submission.”  the digitization internship isn’t even listed on my job apps.  

i feel really crummy about life right now.  pretty sure i’ll wallow in self-pity tonight then keep writing.

such is the life of the average college student, in debt, out of luck, without work or hope for the brief glimpse of the future.

does anyone out there in the universe want to give me a bottle of wine and a hug???  or maybe take me to the future with my loving boyfriend, where we’re living together in our own place in chicago, tucking in for the night with buffalo wings and beer and black ops???

Ravens DC Pagano agrees to become the Colts’ head coach

katiefuckingfitch-:

Baltimore Ravens defensive coordinator Chuck Pagano has agreed to become the next head coach of the Indianapolis Colts, a league source confirmed Wednesday.

Pagano just ended his first season as the Ravens’ defensive coordinator. Baltimore finished the regular season with the NFL’s third-ranked defense both in terms of points and yards allowed.

I am quite okay with this.

thank god.  i’m not even a colts fan and even i have to say the coach was crap.